Arina

2012-02-14T23:39:00.002+08:00

10 9 8 7 6 5 4 3 2 1 -

"I'm sorry I have no fancy way of saying this, but i miss you"

2012-02-05T23:44:00.000+08:00

2012-01-23T22:13:00.001+08:00

Better than this

2012-01-22T22:40:00.002+08:00

One more week down. This week's been fairly good, started off bleah but it ended awefuckingsome :) Went out every single day so I'm finally getting a good rest at home today. I've pretty much been spending my nights watching the rest of Skins and reading books. Hehe I lovelovelooooove season 3 and 4. Emily~ Even though my sister calls it a braincellskiller show Psh.

And since I'm so fucking lazy I'm gonna sum up my week in point forms teehee.

1) Can't remember what I did on Monday Tuesday and Weds. Oh I remember, had dinner w Joy Becks Nette Bai Syaf on Weds! Was good catching up w them again can't wait to meet up on the 1st!

2) Oh I found a new job! ^^ Started on Thursday!

3) Went back to tk to ball on Friday and walked around since they had campfire. Miss playing crazy matches, we were so high Hahahaha. Had a good talk w Gloria. Kinda miss tk :(

4) Buds's place on Saturday! Spent the day playing PS w her and her brother and cousins hahaha likka childhood deprived kids! Played whole day, crazy fun hahaha. Then went down to Nex for dinner w the JC gang!

Okay that's about it. Hahaha sounds boring but it was pretty darn good, i just can't be bothered to go into lengthy details hahaha why oh why am I so lazy. Can't wait for coming week hehe more outings!

K dah enough blabbering bye/

2012-01-12T21:24:00.004+08:00

I. Am. Still. Jobless. *depressed*

Tired but in short, week went pretty well! :) Talked to people i never thought i'll talk to and i finally balled after a long time. Felt pretty good even though i wasn't of much help x) Note to self: Never ball in jeans and a sweater top, felt gross and yucky after that but i gave out smelly hugs still :D

And i am in need of cash, needa SHOPSHOPSHOP. Why can't money just grow on trees >:/

See ya later folks/

2012-01-06T16:37:00.005+08:00

Hello

Almost a week of being unemployed and i might say, this kinda sucks. I have nothing to do and I've watched every movie worth watching (not really). Not to mention that I'm beyond broke so don't talk about going out. Feeling pretty useless at home too. Gonna start looking for a job, keeping my fingers crossed.

Treat her right.

2012-01-02T01:04:00.004+08:00

Hey

Soo.. 2012. Honestly I don't feel any different, it feels like just another day. Haha. Anyhow, spending the last of 2011 w my girls was great. Actually that was my first time celebrating NYE outside in my whole 18 years of living. Hahaha how pathetic. But yest was pretty awesome :) Loved the view from the roof of whatever that mall's called. Couldn't help thinking what if.. But oh wellz. New year new start right..? Right.

Jobless now, so I've pretty much been going out every time I get the chance too. Staying out late w friends is a good get away from all the shitz going on in my head. If only the cash I have is unlimited ugh cannot wait for payday :( Needa shop and in bad need of a trim, my hair's resembling more and more of a lion's mane.

Anw, I'm not gonna bother putting up any new year's resolutions because I'll never live up to it and I don't really have anything to aim for right now except maybe losing weight and go running again. Personal resolutions are gonna stay in my head.

But anw, Happy New Year folks! 

2011-12-26T17:40:00.001+08:00

I've seen a man cry.
I've seen a man shoutout,
afraid losing the woman he loves.
I've seen a woman lying
to her man flat out,
'bout who she's been with
and where she was.
I've seen 'em both fight,
and try to figure it out.
This fight isn't going anywhere
I've seen a child's eyes
watching his parents freak out.
I know they see him but they just don't care.

It won't stop if they don't stop yelling.
It's not the way of working your problems out.
I can't stand being around this yelling
so I'm finding my way out.

I've seen a childs eyes.
I've seen him living in doubt.
Not ever knowing what it's like to be in love.
I've seen his friends try
just to help him get out.
he never told them what the problem really was.
I've seen a suicide.
he couldn't figure it out.
He blamed himself because they couldn't get along.
I've seen his parents eyes
trying to figure it out.
Where did our baby go and what went wrong?

It won't stop if they don't stop yelling
it's not the way of working your problems out.
I can't stand being around this yelling
so i'm finding my way out.

I'm gonna drive and never ever slow down.
I'm gonna drive until i break down.
Packing my things and getting out of this town.
I'm gonna drive until i break down.

I'm gonna drive until i break down.
Hold it inside until i break down.
Not gonna try until i break down.
Say my goodbyes until i break down.
(baby c'mon)

I'm gonna drive until i break down.
Hold it inside until i break down.

2011-12-24T09:29:00.002+08:00

Took leave today because i couldn't get out of bed and i have 'diarrhoea.' The weather's been making it more and more difficult to wake up for work why so nice to sleep in >:( One more week of travelling to the North at ungodly hours but one more week to being jobless :( Eee i hate job hunting can someone just call me to tell me i'm employed psh.

Anyhow won't be home till Mondayyy~ Needed a change of environment anw before my mum send me for anger management classes hahaha x) (She got annoyed by my moodswings hahaha) And since i'm not going for the christmas celebration that's supposed to be after work today, looking forward to the bbq tonight! You are invited! ^^

I wanna watch New Year's Eve too, anyone?

2011-12-18T14:39:00.003+08:00

Sunday morning rain is falling
Steal some covers share some skin
Clouds are shrouding us in moments unforgettable
You twist to fit the mold that I am in
But things just get so crazy living life gets hard to do
And I would gladly hit the road get up and go if I knew
That someday it would lead me back to you
That someday it would lead me back to you

That may be all I need
In darkness she is all I see
Come and rest your bones with me
Driving slow on Sunday morning
And I never want to leave

Fingers trace your every outline
Paint a picture with my hands
Back and forth we sway like branches in a storm
Change the weather still together when it ends

That may be all I need
In darkness she is all I see
Come and rest your bones with me
Driving slow on Sunday morning
And I never want to leave

But things just get so crazy living life gets hard to do
Sunday morning rain is falling and I'm calling out to you
Singing someday it'll bring me back to you
Find a way to bring myself back home to you

And you may not know
That may be all I need
In darkness she is all I see
Come and rest your bones with me
Driving slow on Sunday morning

Been awhile since i last posted a proper post. Anyhow, work has kept me busy and tired. Even though i say i hate my job all the time, it's doing a good job keeping me busy with things (Y) instead of rotting at home feeling sorry for myself. Christmas party on Saturday with the BIS temps ^^ Though i'm not really close to them can't wait :) Now just to think of what to bring for the party cause i realize i've been stealing alot from the snacks drawer but never filling them up :X Baking brownies sounds good but why oh why am i so fucking lazy.

I'm a ball of anger right now sorry to those who got a taste of it, especially my brother who just happens to be near me at the wrong time all the time. And my mum, sigh sorry. Going to Bugis to meet my favourite girls in awhile, cannot wait to get some fresh air.

Hopefully Lazerquest with the team happens, am in the mood to shoot people. Hahaha just kidding.

K should go get dressed now, ciaoz.

2011-12-14T21:43:00.000+08:00

2011-12-11T21:06:00.001+08:00

"You don't want to tell me what's wrong, fine i don't need to know. But you can never stop me from trying to cheer you up. It's a fact of life, you're just going to have to deal with it."

- How I Met Your Mother

2011-11-29T10:12:00.004+08:00

Then my brain starts over-analyzing things, making things seem worse than they really are
And my mind goes on over-drive and starts planning every move to take, playing out how things will turn out.

I dislike this, I dislike how my brain works too hard and every move I make is just another over-thought decision. I want to be spontaneous for once, I want to follow my heart.
And my heart keeps leading me back to you.

2011-11-28T19:08:00.009+08:00

Bathed in record time just to get told that they found someone else to do the job. Pft. Hahaha was hoping to earn easy money today, aish. Studying hasn't been productive, just want to get it over and done with. Four more days hell yeah.

It's amazing how fast time passes by in the day when i have things to occupy myself with, it's at night when i'm waiting for the tiredness to sink in that time moves painfully slow. And my mind starts working and playing things. Vulnerable.

I thought too highly of myself, i'm too weak.

On a lighter note, Glee episode seven comes out today~ :B

2011-11-24T14:38:00.000+08:00

"You're feeling sad tonight.
But you'll be alright."

2011-11-23T18:00:00.002+08:00

Wow we are oddly similar. Hahaha cool.

Haven't started studying, been on the phone ever since trying to get out of this mess. I'm sucha mess cannot stand it. Anyhow, I'm turning into such a pig my bed's been extra comfy today I don't have plans of getting off it. Plus I have everything I need here, my laptop my charger my phone and my books.

Okay dah bye.

2011-11-23T00:16:00.003+08:00

Hey

Just got home a couple of hours ago and i am so fucking tired. Job hunting with my best girls today was crazy, jumped from place to place answering calls and talking to agencies. Had impromptu interviews all over hahaha. Rejected so many and the good ones were either too demanding or they started too early. Dang. And got seriously turned off by this woman not gonna pick up her call sorry.

On a sadder note, have to start doing MCQ practice questions tomorrow though i'm already in the party mood. Bummer. Hate having to think of A's yuck.

Anyway, have to wake up really early later to settle some stuff so scared. Waking up has been a torture lately, hate the heavy feeling i get. Aish.

Okay back to my TV shows marathon (like finish A's ah) TEE HEE.

2011-11-22T00:12:00.003+08:00

Just two more MCQs to go. Feeling pretty good right now with no more heavy content papers to worry about. I'm just so glad my mum's understanding about how next year might turn out. For now at least.

Anyway, today ended pretty awesome-ly. Dinner with the class people didn't seem so bad after all. Ended up catching up and i talked a great deal hahaha felt so good i love times when people just sit down to talk and nothing else. Honestly can't wait for post A's hehehe made so much plans already.

And i'm pretty excited for tomorrow woohoo, hope things goes well though i'm not really good at interviews. Just hope all of us get the job, would be nice to work with my homies :) And man, I'm in terrible need of a haircut was thinking of going short but I've way too much fats in my cheeks to pull such a hairstyle off. Can't wait to hit the gym and go for my night runs again.

Okay my downloads are done. Five episodes of The Walking Dead okcan. Teehee k bye.

2011-11-18T21:05:00.000+08:00

Sweetest being ever <3

2011-11-17T11:40:00.002+08:00

When I sit down alone, I realize alot of things that I never realized before.
Then it's like a kind of sadness that washes over you.

2011-11-15T15:38:00.002+08:00

Challenge accepted.

2011-11-14T17:33:00.002+08:00

Lovin' the weather~ If only it doesn't make me sleepy on nights i have to stay up to study. Aish. Been watching How I Met Your Mother. Downloading Season 7 to watch during my breaks, it's gonna be LEGEND.. Wait for it.. DARY! Hahahaha Barney makes it sound way cooler though so excuse me.

Anw, cannot wait for 29th. Balling w the girls (if it's on) ^^ Hopefully my knee doesn't fail me considering how I've stopped doing all the exercises i have to do hahaha. Damn she's gonna torture me next week not looking forward to butt cramps..

Okay so back to Econs.

2011-11-13T10:49:00.002+08:00

Been fucking unproductive since Friday. Need to get my head back in the game, A's isn't over sadly. I'm so tired from last week's papers, i'm reading but i can't absorb a single thing. At all. Aish.

Okay come on Econs just get into my head already. I have to finish everything by 12, which is in an hour and i still got so much more to go. Damn.

2011-11-12T12:14:00.001+08:00

I can't believe for a moment i thought..

Haha how much stupider can i get.

2011-11-11T14:24:00.005+08:00

Coldplay on rainy days (Y)

Fix You by Coldplay

Yellow by Coldplay

The Scientist by Coldplay

2011-11-10T21:35:00.002+08:00

Sigh not cool Arina, that was not cool. I'd shoot myself right now if I could.

---

Just read something pretty cool off the net. Hahaha I feel so enlightened that I bookmarked it in my iPod so can read again. Like kental like that ah hahaha who cares I like it ^^
*Motivated*

2011-11-09T16:35:00.002+08:00

Three papers down. I'm set on staying w this mood laughing is good for health hahaha. Think people think I'm nuts smiling during papers, I just can't wait for A's to end honestly. (And it's only the second day hahaha). And the thought of freedom feels good. Can't wait for post A's heheheh plans are already half set.

I love Coldplay did yknow gonna go download their songs back into my iPod. And John Mayer!

Okay senseless blabbering here hahaha gonna have a quick jog then a cold bath. Then Math ugh.

2011-11-06T22:14:00.001+08:00

Fuck. Not ready for A's hahaha and yet I'm here.
I hate having to think of what if's. Damn.

Ah k back to Bio bye.

2011-10-29T17:47:00.005+08:00

Honestly love this song.

Goodbye love. Be happy.

2011-10-26T14:10:00.002+08:00

Raining cows and buffalos here. Like shiok to sleep in. Just got home and crashed onto the bed. Today was good even though the meetup session was barely 10 mins hahaha. Need to study soon sigh.

Keep warm, you.

2011-10-24T17:14:00.001+08:00

Today i realised that.. My name is pretty common. Damn i thought it was unique HAHAHA xD

Okay bye.

2011-10-22T11:43:00.002+08:00

Nearing to the end of the week. 2 weeks to A's. I'd be lying if i said i was prepared, that i'm not anxious at all. Have never been good at dealing w stress. Haha been beating down anxiety attacks and regret for slacking the whole year round. 2009 all over again. I never learn do i. Hahaha. Oh well, no time for regrets just gotta give all i have right now, come on.

On a lighter note, i love letters. Got a few this week and i really like them all, especially the one that came by mail :) Real sweet. Oh and I've been catching up on Glee when i take my breaks hahaha Brittana so cute.

Back to the books.

2011-10-12T07:45:00.013+08:00

Good morning world.

Woke up shivering cause the weather's been cold lately. Man i'm so tempted to go back to sleep right now. Who wakes up at 5 to study, yeah only me. Think i'll go sleep another few more hours then study okcan.

Anyway, loving my distraction. Spazzz. Heheh.

Sleeping's kinda nice now.

2011-10-11T08:55:00.001+08:00

Ho ho. That's H O T. Spazzzzzzz.

2011-10-10T01:31:00.002+08:00

I'm a sucker for sob stories :'( Haha watched "My Sister's Keeper" so saddd.

Seven more hours to mock Math, screwed for for life. Oh well back to studying, time to conquer this APGP SS shitz. *Motivated*

Step back and look at things now. You don't know what you're saying.

2011-10-09T02:36:00.010+08:00

Tonight's a cold night. Weirdly all i wanna do is go out and take a walk in the rain. Made myself ribena and all snuggled up- infront of my books. Ugh studying, God i hate studying.

Watched the movie when i should be studying, but hey no regrets. I can never get bored of this movie <3

Stop thinking the worst out of me, because if you really think so.. Then you don't know me at all.

2011-10-07T20:57:00.008+08:00

It was like 'Boom' and then nothing.

I didn't know i had so many drafts in my dashboard. So many things i wanted to post but didn't have the guts to.

2011-10-01T22:28:00.003+08:00

Old songs are the love~

This time for real. Watch me.

2011-09-18T23:16:00.001+08:00

Do you know what's worth fighting for?
When it's not worth dying for?
Does it take your breath away
And you feel yourself suffocating?

Does the pain weigh out the pride?
And you look for a place to hide?
Did someone break your heart inside?
You're in ruins

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms, give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky, you and I

When you're at the end of the road
And you lost all sense of control
And your thoughts have taken their toll
When your mind breaks the spirit of your soul

Your faith walks on broken glass
And the hangover doesn't pass
Nothing's ever built to last
You're in ruins

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms, give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky, you and I

Did you try to live on your own
When you burned down the house and home?
Did you stand too close to the fire
Like a liar looking for forgiveness from a stone?

When it's time to live and let die
And you can't get another try
Something inside this heart has died
You're in ruins

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms, give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms, give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky, you and I

2011-09-04T13:01:00.002+08:00

1) Why are you such a snob?

2) Priorities, priorities.

3) Like a paper.

4) Breathe.

5) All is well, all is well. *pats heart*

2011-08-27T00:19:00.004+08:00

Is everybody going crazy?

Is anybody gonna save me?

Can anybody tell me what's going on?

Tell me what's going on?

If you open your eyes

You'll see that something is wrong

I'm still up studying hahaha my motivation to study, is going down so tired of studying. I've been bipolar lately terribly sorry to anyone who kena :X

I kinda miss how it was back then, that person i used to be. I was certainly way less bitchy, less socially awkward, less blunt and less serious. But hey, things happen for a reason don't they? Maybe a trip back will help me, so see you kiddos there if i see you haha ^^

And i've been getting really strange dreams lately, of things that i never really give much attention to, about people that i don't really talk to. Haha pretty strange huh, can't put my finger on it either. Oh well.

Cheers.

All is will be well.

2011-08-26T07:20:00.003+08:00

End of school. At least until Prelims are over. Finally, more time to fully focus.

Ugh i keep pressing Shift on the keyboard, side effects of using a Blackberry tsk.

Okay anyway, i am drained. In all aspects. It's all getting to me now but i can't afford to screw up my Prelims. Not this time.

Time to wake up Arina. Set your priorities straight.

2011-08-23T08:45:00.003+08:00

~~Why avoid the topic? I'm having doubts. Sorry.~~

Home today~ Love not going to school heheh. What's new. Okay anw, have an appointment at CGH later, I'm fine but i want mc for the rest of the weeeeeek sigh. My old habit is back and I'm feeling so lethargic now. Okay i have no idea what I'm typing.

Back to work.

2011-08-21T18:25:00.002+08:00

I've been feeling awfully restless lately. It's like as if i know something bad is gonna happen, just not what it is. Hahaha strange.

Aiming to finish Macro by tonight. *cross fingers*

"When the night seems to be at it's darkest, it means that the sun is rising soon.

Press on, don't give up"

Haha still remember this quote after so long, and how i was made to put this on the display screen on my phone as a constant reminder.

2011-08-21T13:47:00.002+08:00

Good morning sunshinee.

Aside from the frequent anxiety attacks i get, life has been pretty much the same. I'm practically married to my books now. Ha ha. Prelims is just next week and let's see.. I'm still progressing like a snail. Oh well, steady pom pee pee ^^ (At least that's what i try to tell myself to be)

On a brighter note, finally got my new phone hehehe. I'm a sucker for white-coloured phones ^^ I shall look for nice covers. And omgah have to pay for so many things next week bloody hell i was just beginning to enjoy holding that much money PFFT.

Okay back to studying sigh so much to do so little time~

Good things come and go

2011-08-08T15:19:00.001+08:00

I am so messed up right now.
I'm sorry.
I'm just so tired. I'm so sorry.

2011-08-07T05:58:00.001+08:00

It's amazing how strangers can puncture your self-esteem with their words.

2011-08-04T23:21:00.001+08:00

Ain't gonna work out. It never does.

And this is when everything starts to fall apart. With no way of stopping it.
I'm ruined.

2011-07-26T12:56:00.002+08:00

So i counted..

Friends I've made is less than friends I've lost. Go figure.

Anyway, just got back from CGH. I have to go for physiotherapy for muscle strengthening. Sooo that'll take me 1 month, 2 months tops till i'm back to normal. Sucha slow recovery. Cute doctor smiled and laughed at me today though hehe ^^

School's been a hell hole, so tiring and it's not like i'm getting any smarter.. And it's getting way too competitive in school for my liking, like ease up man. Hahaha. But i guess, that little pressure's making me work harder, so i'm not complaining.

Okay been slacking last night and this morning, soo before i feel like I've wasted one whole day.. Back to studying. Loving it (Not).

2011-07-06T10:20:00.002+08:00

It's sad when people you were once close to become complete strangers.
And those you never thought would stand by you, surprises you.

Sigh.

2011-07-02T23:05:00.002+08:00

Fuck. Screw studies. Haha this is another case of 'trying my best is never enough.' Been studying so hard (i swear i have, wait, except for Bio maybe) but i'm still back to square one, like everything i've studied is just like foreign to me once again.

Bleah, so fucking exhausted. Probably back to school next week, providing that my leg stops swelling when i sit too much. But damn, walking in crutches is gonna be so maluating. Sigh my life.

Okay, back to work..

2011-07-01T20:39:00.002+08:00

Good evening worldd.

Happy kid_101 now. Finally installed a wireless router in the house. 'Whatttt' i know right. Hahaha so caveman but it's okay better late then never ^^ Been hopping around on one leg trying to get the damn thing to connect.

Anyway my mum went out and bought a black blackberry. It's kinda nice. But since she's gonna get the white version.. I'm gonna wait for that and let my sister have the black one hehe ^^

Okay back to Math(finally).

2011-06-26T11:11:00.005+08:00

Hi I am bored to death.
Been in bed since Thursday, but frankly I have no intention of moving anywhere else hahaha. Kinda feel useless cause I can't do anything on my own. But hey, on the bright side when will I ever get another chance like this: to not get scolded for not doing anything. Sweet.

Okay, I won't be taking my SA2. Was kinda looking forward to see just to see how much I've progress (i have a feeling not much) so I know where I stand. But now that the teachers ain't gonna mark my papers and I won't have an official report card.. Guess I have alot to do on my own. Sian. Lost the will to study, so far since Thursday I've read.. One page. Hahaha. Okay I have to start studying. Or.. I can go on the net first and study in 10 minutes. Zomg so lazy.

And my upper body strength is.. Close to non-existence. Hahaha looks like I have to do something about flabby right and left.

Okay till next time folks.

2011-06-24T17:49:00.003+08:00

I know I'm supposed to feel happy but I kinda don't.
It kinda sucks actually. I think I'm the reacher. Ha ha.

2011-05-20T11:18:00.001+08:00

You're sucha fucking liar.

Hi school has been a bitch, everyday has been and I'm so fucking tired.

Okay bye.

2011-05-17T11:42:00.001+08:00

Hi.

I kinda miss the me last time.

2011-04-28T01:37:00.006+08:00

'Burn Out';

It's like you start to

1) Feel stressed up

2) Dread school

3) Feel lethargic even after getting enough rest

4) Feel depressed over no apparent reason

5) Tend to feel defeated

6) Can't find the energy to do anything else

7) Worry about school/work/life

8) Affect your appetite

9) Always irritable

10) Have trouble sleeping cause of worries

11) Avoid socializing because it's draining

Wow i never thought there was a word to express how i'm feeling right now. Guess there is. Sigh i'm sucha paranoid, insecure and troubled kid.

2011-04-19T23:24:00.002+08:00

Bleah. Like a weak and insecure doosche :(((((((((((((((((((

Today was.. Sigh. Maybe i'll reblog when i'm in a better mood.

So long.

2011-04-19T07:13:00.001+08:00

Stop.
Just stop there.

2011-04-15T11:47:00.001+08:00

Seriously?
You're really going there huh.
It's ridiculous just so yknow.
One word,
Grow up.

2011-04-12T17:08:00.002+08:00

Hihi!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hehe feel so high right now, been trying to psyche myself up everyday for school so i don't mope around all day. Working, i guess.

I reallyreally like talking to Nunu, she's like a big sister, she always makes sense. Talking to her today left me feeling light-hearted, like a huge burden off my chest hehe love her la! Okay anw, ran 4 by 400 and 4 by 100 relay, almost died. Need to improve my stamina+speed+accuracy before the match against VJC next Tuesday. Scared ttm, don't wanna get thrashed :X

Okay side-track, i hate playing second-fiddle.

So long.

2011-04-10T13:56:00.002+08:00

Hihi :)

Just came back from our 2days 1night Basketball Camp last night. Tired ttm like a drunkard now. Ha ha. Hopefully we did bond the team but I had fun I guess :) Goldkist chalet wasn't as bad as they say and I think the race was a success. Had fun laughing at the j1s chionging. They went crazy awhile hahaha especially the biting of polo sweet from the string hahahahaha like market aunties :P I'm damn broke now though spent like there was no tmr hahaha and broke my NO FAST FOOD diet sian by pancakes only so nvm.

Oh cycling home was eventful chionged in the rain hahaha I was like struggling to keep up w Bala and Jialing x) Then after that should remain a secret but I had fun laughing :D

Tuition now then meeting you hehe :)

2011-04-02T00:42:00.002+08:00

Hah. It's just me. Sigh.

2011-03-25T00:24:00.005+08:00

"Anywhere you are, I am near
Anywhere you go, I'll be there
Anytime you whisper my name, you'll see
How every single promise I keep
Cuz what kind of guy would I be
If I was to leave when you need me most

What are words
If you really don't mean them
When you say them
What are words
If they're only for good times
Then they don't
When it's love
Yeah, you say them out loud
Those words, They never go away
They live on, even when we're gone

And I know an angel was sent just for me
And I know I'm meant to be where I am
And I'm gonna be
Standing right beside her tonight
And I'm gonna be by your side
I would never leave when she needs me most

Anywhere you are, I am near
Anywhere you go, I'll be there
And I'm gonna be here forever more
Every single promise I keep
Cuz what kind of guy would I be
If I was to leave when you need me most

I'm forever keeping my angel close"

Hello.

Haven't posted since forever. School's been a bitch, had zero use of the net for two whole weeks cause of SA's but oh well gonna get straight Us anyway. Hahaha.

So, i've realised/learnt a lot of things recently. Things that i never thought i'll ever have to say out. Been a trying week and past week for me. Things are just never that perfect are they? No matter how you shape them to be in your mind, it's never the same in reality. Think i comfort myself a lot recently just so i won't spent hours on end beating myself thinking over a simple matter/incident. Hahaha.

Oh well, i'm reaching full on my crash meter just really tired. Thank god for my close loved ones.

2011-02-28T22:07:00.006+08:00

Things are finally looking up. Well.. Kinda.

I learnt something:

Argh just screw everything.

2011-02-18T23:00:00.006+08:00

Hello.

.. I actually don't know what to write for this week, cause it was just bad. Plain bad. Full stop.

Stuck on this song ha ha.

So here is to the heartbreakers
Who are so good at hiding all the evidence of them pretending.

You try to play his games but
Then you're the one who's being confusing.
He'll keep using that old line,
You could just tell me you don't have the time.
But no, you wanna leave me hanging.
What's the point in all of my waiting?
I'm the one who's noticing you,
Guess that makes me obsessed with you.
I turn your flaws into beauty,
And you're seeing this as a bad thing.
Are you kidding me?
Yeah well, you're the one who'll be missing me.

This is the story of a girl who builds her own thoughts.
She has the faith that he'll be more than what she only thinks she
wants.
She's seen the bitter truth
But when someone is looking right at you,
It's hard to see through the lying eyes
When you're mesmerized.
Yeah I'm mesmerized.

So here's to you, the heartbreaker
Who was so good at hiding all the evidence of your pretending.

2011-02-12T00:07:00.002+08:00

Okay hello this week has been duper super tiring. I'm feeling drained and on the verge of crashing soon haha. Been spending a whole lot of time on CCA this week what with CCA fair (which was a mess actually) and recruitment of JC1s. But worth it cause our turnout this year is like an army compared to our measly gang of five. Ha ha. Plus they're a bunch of talented people with a lot of potential. Pressure much, but it's good seeing how everyone's going to work hard from now on :)

We will have training three times a week now, so i'm going to have to manage my time well cause at the rate i'm going, i will flunk A's and sweep the streets one day. Haha.

Which reminds me, i have to start studying for CA1s which is next week. Holy cow.

2011-01-31T21:29:00.000+08:00

2011-01-31T20:00:00.004+08:00

Way to go, first day of the week and hell no, crossing fingers and wishing for a better week didn't work. Today was fairly okay(?). Changed my perspective of school but nah thinking positive didn't work either. Sighh.

Maybe trying just isn't enough anymore.

2011-01-30T22:08:00.003+08:00

The best thing 'bout tonight's that we're not fighting
Could it be that we have been this way before?
I know you don't think that I am trying
I know you're wearing thin down to the core

But hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you over again
Don't make me change my mind

This is not what I intended
I always swore to you I'd never fall apart
You always thought that I was stronger
I may have failed, but I have loved you from the start

So breathe in so deep
Breathe me in, I'm yours to keep
And hold on to your words 'cause talk is cheap
And remember me tonight when you're asleep

Because tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you over again
Don't make me change my mind

Tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you over again
Don't make me change my mind

2011-01-29T22:02:00.001+08:00

Green eyes

2011-01-28T21:32:00.006+08:00

I can safely say that today was a good end to an otherwise horrible week. It's only the fourth week and i'm already wishing that school hasn't started. I'm still as slack as ever, not doing anything but i'm proud to say that i did pay attention in some lectures and tutorials B) Hehe. But anyway, i'm still ~~hating~~ disliking school. Bleah, i hate the fact that i keep coming back to life in tk. Like how good life was and how life is. I'm just hoping i get the drive to go school once again like how i used to. That feeling of not dreading that there's school the next day that kinda thing. Having my classmates say i look dead every morning is just saddening, cause i didn't use to be like that. I miss my friends :( Those that never fail to brighten up my day and make me love school and the crazy things we do and laugh about. Oh hell i miss everythingg sighhh. Okay back to reality Arina.

Hmm so this week generally was a.. Idk saying that it was bad is an understatement. Haha. OH EXCEPT FOR THURSDAY. Hehe Thursday was loveeee <3

Wednesday was the worst, like i just came home feeling lost and walking one big round around my house just so that noone can see me in that state. Horrible laaa. But talking to N today makes me feel like understood. Like she totally gets what i meant and know how i felt. It's like omg finally someone i can pour out everything to and won't judge me. Yknow it's like you never know who actually went through and felt the same way as you. Okay what am i saying. But it just was great ah in other words, after the talk with N. I LOVE talking to her noww. Not that i never had haha. Thanks :')

Okay i'm gonna wallow in self-pity then pick myself up for another dreadful week next week. I hope next week will be better. *cross fingers*

2010-12-05T07:17:00.002+08:00

Give me some sunshine

Give me some rain

Give me another chance

I wanna grow up once again

I am hopeless.

2010-10-14T15:08:00.004+08:00

2010-10-14T14:52:00.004+08:00

Sometimes i get too caught up with life, chasing the superficial things that i forget the more important things in the world. But each time i realise them, it reminds me of how much closer i am to the end of the road.

2010-10-13T06:38:00.002+08:00

Haha this blog is soo dead. Computer crashed, internet down so i'm literally stuck at home doing nothing for the past few days. Yea i wish, haha been having pw everyday i'm so sick and tired of it. Crashed xj's house yesterday, ended up watching movie and binging instead of working on our pw but ohwell.

Results in two more weeks. Honestly, i don't look forward to it. And i have no idea what i'm doing w my life ha ha probably gonna screw up every single exam that exists. I'm no good at this, maybe i made the wrong choice but ohwell too late for regrets.

On a brighter note, i have this sudden urge to revamp my whole wardrobe. Wokayy, back to sleep.

Darling, you are the only exception,

2010-09-17T06:30:00.008+08:00

This whole week sucked. So much for "time to partayyyy" and catching up w all the good food i missed. Okay actually that i did hahaha ate so much i think i gained twice as much weight as i lost during the fasting month. Tsktsk, but things are in such a mess right now. Studying has been unproductive too. I can't understand sooo many things.

Yesterday was one of a kind, never knew i would go to such an extent and made it pretty obvious. Definitely, maybe.

Okay, time for school. Just 5 more hours, hold onnn.

Once upon a time,

2010-09-09T00:28:00.003+08:00

I've never wanted any of this.
Back to square one: Regret
Hmm. I don't have anything to say actually, just one. PW is a bitch. Hahahaha ohwell.

2010-09-06T23:53:00.002+08:00

I'm gonna take it all out
I'm gonna be the last one standing

Hellohello.

Believe it or not, i'm on my way to Geekdom~ Well, cause i have to if you see my Mid Years and CA3, want to womit blood. Hahahaha going nostalgic w Bai after reading her post. Last year was seriously the bombz but please don't get me started on the number of i-should-have's. Tskkkkkkkkk the top on the list is still O's though but whatever it's overrrr. Yucks regrets. Hahahaha we got chased by so many teachers la last year so fuunnn okay you should read Bai's post. But we were so insistent on breaking all rules before we leave so gung ho but we're fun like that :DD Hehe.

Okay back to PW.

2010-08-31T02:31:00.003+08:00

Hello, i can't sleep.

So anw, i'm waiting to carry out my not so diabolical plan hahaha i hope nothing happens. My first time oi lie like thatt. Hahaha. Tomorrow is going to be a longg day, i am going to study.

Yesterday bukaing out w my two favourite people was damn good! Syaf seela why you canot make it it would have said 3 ^ there but it's okay love you manymany still!! ^^ I haven't laugh that much since the last time we met (Okay maybe i did but you get me). We buka-ed at Geylang! Felt super melayu yesterday cause of the atmosphere but there were too little people there so felt like something was missing. We laughed and made fun of each other like nobody's business, like always omg it was damn good hehe can't wait for the next time we meet :D Honeydew Milk Tea ftw, i found a pearl on my bag Bai! Hahaha :)

Okay so idk why my mood was so weird today(I mean yest) kept like mood swinging. I'm surprised nobody actually screamed at me or something, okay technically Bai did ahahahaha. It felt as if something bad was happening at another place but i have no idea what. Restless ttm.

But anw, Aal Iz Well.

2010-08-17T21:14:00.009+08:00

Yesterday was good :)

On another note, love this song

Disappointment.

2010-08-02T02:54:00.008+08:00

Hello

First things first, thanks Bai for that awesomely sweet post cannot take it HAHA i'm just kidding :) Appreciate it to the max. You cheer up too, i know you're having a hell lot of fun. Love you alot muacks. :) See you soon :D
Well, to sum it up, this week has been pretty depressing. It's comforting to know that I'm not the only one who feels that way, actually found quite a few. Thank you to the people who had been there, really appreciate it though i know i rant a little too much and half the thing i say don't actually make sense. Love you guys alotalot. <3

Anw, tears all dried up and the negativity all gone, here comes a new lease of life.

After all we've turned from this

to this
maybe someday we'll turn to this

Hahahaha nah just kidding, but you get what i mean :)

2010-07-25T23:21:00.002+08:00

There's something disturbing my thoughts and i feel superbly restless. I can't say i can't put my finger on it, simply cause i can. I know what I'm worried about, the one thing I'm afraid of most. (This is beginning to sound like those depressing last note kinda thing, Ha ha, but it's not of course.) You may know it, you may not. Maybe this is the side effects from work overdose (if I'm capable of that hahaha) or lack of sleep, but this nagging feeling.. To put it simply, Sucks.

Life's getting out of hand sometimes i don't even know what I'm doing. I'm doing things i know i'll end up regretting, like not studying when i failed my mid years hands down, and saying the most bizarre things I'll end up thinking what the hell am i saying. Sometimes i wonder why I'm wasting so much time thinking of worst case scenarios when I'm well, supposed to be off doing things more worthy in life. Like my EOM for example.
Bloody hell, i know where those are from. Go figure.
Back to reality.

2010-07-18T21:43:00.002+08:00

Move On.

2010-07-15T23:40:00.004+08:00

Today was a bad day. Honestly.
P.A you feel me right.
Sigh.
It's times like this that i want to hug you real bad.
Got back results for mid years. I did reallyreally badly, but I'm actually kinda surprised that my mum didn't give me the usual 5 mins nagging. Have to work extra hard for Promos. Okay, saying it is x 543521342 easier than doing it. I'm still my usualsleepandnotpayingattentioninclass mood. Only worse. Haha shitzx i am so lazyy.

2.4km tmr and i have a feeling I'm gonna die. Been so bad moodish lately, and I'm terribly sorry to whoever who got hit by the mood swing.

Okayy back to studying i feel like living off the grid for once away from everything kbye/.

2010-07-06T23:39:00.012+08:00

I'm sorry.

Anw, I wanna watch this. Cute. Anyone?

2010-07-04T22:59:00.004+08:00

Dooschebag.

2010-06-27T21:29:00.002+08:00

Holidays are ending.
And the papers are starting. Gosh how i dread for tmr to come. Econs and GP, both yucks. Didn't start proper for mid years. And here i am still struggling to finish a few more pages of econs. When have i ever been ready, really. Monopoly Perfect Competition whattttt. Haha.

Read Bai's blog. Yea, i really miss those old times too. How different. Everyone's different too. Maybe i'm just leaving backwards sometimes. Maybe i'm afraid of change. Hmm. I kinda look forward to coming trainings. I realised balling helps to take things off my mind. Somehow, someway or another.
Come to think of it. What a hypocrite you are.
Ohwell, back to studying.

2010-06-18T12:50:00.006+08:00

I don't want to study anymore. Tiring ttm.

I want to go out. Shitzxz.
Wtf to you.

2010-06-16T22:15:00.002+08:00

I wanna be a billionaire so freaking bad
Buy all of the things I've never had

I (finally) sat down to study proper today. Hahaha after procrastinating for so long. I found out what a mistake it was to take Bio even though it's my H1 subject when i kept dozing off while memorizing the first chapter. How fruitful. Not. I lost count how many times my mum woke me up but i was in denial. Kept answering that i was awake when i was obviously not. Hahaha. Better than the other days at least.

Monday was = <3 while Tuesday was = <3 too. I have a great life. :) Now, if only every other day were like those.

2010-06-13T23:07:00.001+08:00

Mm. I feel like moving from here.
Getting bored of this space.
Dum
Dum

2010-05-23T17:49:00.004+08:00

Early this morning when i was still in bed my sister said to me,

S: I dare you to go into the kitchen and not come back screaming.
M: Why? There's food? Alotalot of food?
S: I don't know. Go take a look for yourself. But i dare you not to come back screaming.
M: ON.

One minute later..

M: Whaatt, there's nothing laaaa! Hah! I win. *Looks down* Aaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

Hahaha annoying being for a sister. Scared me w a cockroach when i was still half asleep.
Argh, no please no.

2010-05-22T23:34:00.005+08:00

Dear you,

A good ending to a bad week :)
I'm sorry i've been mean. Ps. I love you. Alot.

2010-05-21T23:52:00.003+08:00

Up there's cute ^^

Okay anw, I have nothing much to blog about. Except that this week isn't really my good week. Reached my limit of control twice and i just.. fell. Ah stupid week..

On the other hand, i seriously need to catch up on my work. Been lagging behind so much i have a feeling my PAP score is gonna be horrible. All the returned papers never reached a pass so far. Ugh.

Trainings have been tiring too. Which is good cause then i'll just fall asleep without having to make myself do so. Ran 5plus km for warm up. And did some tiring drills afterward. Today's training was kinda fun though, did Teamwork stuff for the run. Clap and run in synchrony. For 5km plus sprints. Hahaha. Interesting no?

Kbye.
You're different from how i thought you were..

2010-05-12T20:46:00.004+08:00

Hi

Today was pretty good. Way better than the Road Run. The only downside were the classes before that. AND the fact that we were locked in the school like prisoners during our break. Oh and not forgetting my marathon to school. I seriously have to stop oversleeping. Just one more to suspension. Pfft. Sprinting to school is tiring. Hahaha.

March past for me this year was kinda different. Thumbs up for whoever who came up w the balloons thing. :) It was cool, cause after the poppers everyone released the different colored balloons. And there were like around 600plus balloons. So you can imagine la the tiny specks in the sky. Ran, i didn't contribute much though. But since it's over let's not talk about it. Our house didn't win Overall Champion. Sad thing. Chain broken. Hahaha.

This week's been pretty average. Good stuff bad stuff. Usual ups and downs. Sigh.
I am not your piece of tissue.

2010-05-06T22:29:00.001+08:00

2010-05-05T22:38:00.004+08:00

I learnt something interesting today: You can pass sweaty palms to others. According to some sources. Hahaha so cute. Argued for a good 10 mins how sweaty/rough Dawn hands are. Hilarious ah she. So anw, Coach treated us to Seoul Garden today. :)

Window shopping w the rest afterwards made me realised how many things i NEED to buy.
1) Gifts
2) Watch
3) Bottle (Omg i've been looking for a nice bottle since 1233131 years ago la still can't find.)
4) Bag
5) Shoes for Baizu (HAHA sorry ah number 5, i still remember no problem. Hahaha.)

And the list goes on.

I'm thinking of joining smt. But my schedule's kinda packed. Hm.

2010-05-04T22:31:00.003+08:00

I'm done w PI! :D Okayla, no biggie hundreds of people submitted theirs long time ago. Though mine is soo not as attractive as Baizurah's (so jealous Bai!) it's okay i guess. At least i completed. :)

School was surprisingly not as tiring as i thought it would have been. Since it's also my first time doing PE after skipping so many lessons. But Econs tutorials are like my nap times uh, seriously. Same time same day i will come to a point when i can barely write in a straight line or even write anything related to what's being copied. Best i know.

There was something i felt i needed to write here a few minutes ago, but i just can't remember it anymore.
Oh. Have you heard, Lady Gaga amputated her leg for fashion purposes. I knew she was eccentric just not to that point! Hahaha. I don't know if it's true, but if it is.. Sorry to say, it's kinda stupid. Hahaha can dance then go amputate for what. If it's true la, oh well.

K, senseless post.
Bye.
Opposites attract :)

2010-05-02T21:41:00.006+08:00

Hihi

Heheh i still feel energized from Friday, but I'm going to lay my hands off any form of sports till school starts on Tuesday. So exhausted and drained, i can fall asleep within minutes, seriously. And to think that I've been resting since then and I've yet to complete any homework. And i mean ANY. Still struggling w stupid PI. Hahaha omg.

I'm so gonna miss going off for competition much earlier than the supposed time then slacking all for the next few hours. And the dinner and crapping after that. So shweet. :) Hahaha.

Anw. I need to start doing my work and study. And PI. Ugh.

Kbye.
Idk what i'm so pissed about but i guess it's just the way you think. It's revolting, sorry.

2010-04-30T23:12:00.005+08:00

Hi

Today's a day to be remembered. Though it's not what most people would consider as a victory, it was a big thing for us. No Coach, one senior. It actually felt good to be able to win for the team, to play as one. The pep talk Jiamin and Nurul gave me before heading to CSH actually helped. I've always found it hard to get back the 'feel' when I'm nervous. But the long bus ride actually allowed me to think. Which was good.

Anw, boring parts skipped, the first half was kinda scary. Scores were really close, everyone was panting and tired. I still screwed up as usual. But today felt different. Not only cause of that(Though PROVEN hahaha) it was like.. Got more energy. No, not cause i drank 1 1/2 cans of redbull and ate a banana or the sudden burst of energy. Like there's the 'feel' ah. Abit. Haha. I think i'm lucky to have been given so many chances despite screwing up plays and games a number of time. So thank you Team :)

Okayy. Mm. After the match onwards was good. :) Plus the tau pok (sp?) and the smelly hugs. :D And the.. everything. :D
I'm sorry.

Kbye.